hello everyone

hello everyone,

i'm so sorry that Tina and I have been so rubbish at writing on here we've just been crazily busy with work, however many a night have i led in bed thinking of all the things that i wanted to say.

The last blog that I posted Tina thought, and actually so did I, that it was a bit of a 'downer'. I didn't mean it to be but I wanted to be honest. I want everyone who's reading it to realise that I didn't take it as well as I could have at first, I was hurt, angry, confused but once we'd worked it out I was fine. I hoped it might be comforting.

Anyway to add to the story I remember the first time that I saw Tina with make-up on. When I first foudn out about Tina I think we both took things a bit too fast, Tina wanted me to see her with make-up on and the full whack but it was hard. I saw Tina with make-up on and I've never told her but it really freaked me out. I felt guilty as hell but it made me realise that if I wanted to progress and really embrace who Tina was I needed to tell her that I needed to slow down. When I first told her hse didn't understand and took it as a rejection on my part but it wasn't, I just needed to do it for the both of us and for our relationship. Our relationship is the most important thing in my life, I can't describe what she means to me because nothing I can say will truly do how I feel any justice, and when we started to take things at my pace we made really good progress and within no time at all I wanted to see Tina fully dresses.

Wow I remember that time. She took ages getting ready while I hid under the bed covers like a loser. When she was ready I couldn't even bring the covers from my eyes, I was so scared and in fits of nervous laughter. I feel so guilty now but I just giggled...she looked amazing. It was crazy when she came over the kiss me, stroking hair when i'd stroke his neck and having hair in my face and lipgloss on her lips. I was awestruck and filled with pride. I can't even explain it. I think that night was the first time we made love as two 'females'.

Since then Tina has dressed on and off, when she wants to it's cool with me. I prefer it if I know about it but I can't say that I'd be too disappointed to be greeted at the door by my girlfriend instead of my boyfriend. To be honest I love Tina and often it's me who instigates her dressing although she never takes much persuading!!

Hmmmm ok I think that's enough for tonight, hopefully Tina and I will put a video of us together with hints and tips on make-up and stuff and i want tina to hurry up and write some stuff and maybe answer in some way what I've wrote. I'd like to know as much as everyone the way she felt at this time in our lives.